Back to yesterday, it was such a wonderful day! I woke up not being to apply pressure to my left foot, so I hopped to the bathroom, took my meds and went to sit down. I was up for about thirty minutes, when Shawn came in saying his parents were ready to go to Lowes, (we needed to get insulation for the upstairs) I got up to get ready. Brennan was still sleeping and I was still trying to get ready, (it takes a while when you can't move) when Shawn came in, said he was just going to leave. I was not quite ready yet, Brennan still needed to get up and get ready too, he really wanted to go get it over with, so he could work on the house. I really wanted to go, just to get out of the house, stay moving and stay positive, I completely understood his point so I let him know that it was ok. He really is amazing sometimes (also I suck at hiding how I feel) he could see I was upset, that I wanted to go but didn't want to be a hindrance to his day, so he changed his mind, I had five minutes to finish getting ready and get Brennan ready. Yay! We got home unloaded and started the work on the upstairs, trying to get it ready for winter. Brennan was there to help/get in the way, but the day was so wonderful I didn't mind that he was underfoot. Lots of breaks due to the heat being almost unbearable up stairs, the breaks were the best part of the day. One break we took a quick ride in the work truck to the back of the house, just because, then sat in the shade enjoying conversation with Brennan on the swing bench.
Conversation in the picture above Brennan "maybe Daddy when you get your jeep fixed, maybe we go mudding. Does that sound like a deal?" He is so cute it's almost to much! Up stairs we have some beds for storage, to get them out of the way we stacked them, which instantly became a place to play and bond with Daddy for Brennan.
It was so wonderful spending time with my family, that the pain seem to melt away! I may not have been able to afford the fair but as you can see by the smiles, we had a really great day. I always love to see Shawn with Brennan, he did so great when Brennan did a super man dive across the ground. Poor kid scrapped up his chest and was rather upset, Shawn stepped up and got him laughing in no time.
I Loved yesterday and went to bed thinking tomorrow can only get better, boy was I wrong. I woke up in more pain then the day before, with hot muggy weather, it was just too much. Just as I was getting ready to get motivated (around 1pm, Yikes!!!) I had an uneasy conversation with Shawn's mom, which lasted almost 2 hours, but ended nicely. This added time on to my day which threw me off, I needed to go to the bank and wanted to bring Brennan to the park (I felt horrible that I was in such a slump that I wanted to get him out to have fun.) I tried to put my hair up, obviously that didn't go over well, it just made me flustered and angry. I was in a rush, I hate that feeling, once again adding to the stress. Off to the park we went, for a short run around, we meet up with Brennan's buddy Luke. Poor Luke was having a bad day but Brennan made the best of it, he really is a great inspiration to me. I strive to be the best Mother I can be but fail in so many ways, like all of today, but he continues to On my way to the bank I called my Mom (she is truly my best friend) I just let it all out tears and all, pain really can mess with your head. Some guy wasn't paying attention and almost ran me off the highway, I managed to avoid a side swipe but it just added to the stress of my day, at that point I just yelled can this day just be over with please!!!! Maybe the universe heard me, my day didn't get any better but definitely didn't get any worse. Ended it with subway, snuggles and some time to blog, to bad I forgot to publish it last night! So Good morning my mood is much better today everything still hurts but the humidity is down and my motivation up, here's to a better day. I will over come this!!!
-Patty Hilton-
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